Getting Some Directions April 30, 2008

4/19/08, 11:09 pm:

I am officially a Spartan as of today. 

The University of Hawaii Manoa law school didn’t want me and so I’m headed off to Michigan instead.  I can tell my dad is pretty disappointed and so is my mother, but what am I going to do?  Yeah, I totally goofed off in high school and in undergrad and now I’m paying for it.  Or rather, they are, which is really depressing.

But this time, I’m going to make it right and do what I said I was going to do.  I’m going to come out of it with a law degree, and I’m going to make it into the top ten percent of my class.  I didn’t know what I wanted going into undergraduate, and when I finished, I still didn’t know what I wanted.  But now I’m passionate about finishing, if only because it means that I don’t have to worry anymore about a job or any more school.  I am very lucky to have parents who are willing to pay all of this for me.

Hopefully this time I won’t slack off, and instead I’ll be able to move past my laziness and do something with myself.  My dad keeps telling me I’m squandering my potential to do well in school, but I’ve been so lazy because I’ve lacked focus or a direction in my life.  Maybe now I can really find something that will fire me and make me want something for myself, instead of just wanting because others wanted it for me.

And now that the decision is final and I’m not in limbo, it means that I can start doing things towards this.  Register for class, get an apartment, set my plane trip up, find furniture, find a roommate.  It’s all there, all in my reach, and all I have to do is get up off my sorry butt and reach for it.